Thursday, December 18, 2008

Still chugging along ...

The weight piles on quickly and leaves reluctantly -- such is life. The Thanksgiving weight gain is slowly whittling back down ... and behold ... here comes Christmas. I will continue to alternate day fast through this holiday. As wonderful as it was to join in on all the daily festivities, it was not worth feeling sick afterwards, nor was it worth gaining weight. I am feeling better now, although some days my intestines still feel inflamed and tender. If I ever have health insurance again, I will get that checked out. It's probably just some kind of immune reaction going on, but in the back of my mind it worries me sometimes.

My boyfriend's work Christmas party is tomorrow. It would normally be a fasting day for me, so instead I am fasting today. He let them know that I am (primarily) a vegetarian so that I will be able to eat something this year. Last year at the party, after fasting all day long and REALLY looking forward to FOOD, the only option available to me was tortilla chips and melted nacho cheese. I recall feeling panicked as the window for eating closed and I hadn't had any real NOURISHMENT.

Wednesday, December 3, 2008

Oh Hell No

I just can't do it. I can't eat the standard diet and maintain my weight. I don't know what it is, but my body just swells up. I gained around 5 pounds during the 4/5 days that I ate everyday (began fasting again on Monday). Granted, the food wasn't my normal organic, fresh healthy foods, but I can't recall making a pig out of myself or eating until I was stuffed at any time. Whatever it was, my body did not like it. My face is puffy and my intestines/colon feel inflamed and very tender, neither of these has happened since last year before I began doing ADF. It was something that I used to live with all the time. I actually 'feel' toxic and I don't like feeling this way.

Today is a fasting day for me. I'm glad, because I know that I'll feel a little better tomorrow and a little better with each passing fasting day until I'm back to normal again. I'm thankful that I have found something which corrects this situation. I don't have to feel this way all the time anymore. I know that the weight will come back off. I'm a little anxious to learn how quickly or slowly that will happen. Will it snap right back or will it take weeks/months to get back to the weight I was at?